Oh Food How I Love You

I never thought I would find myself thinking of food like I do now.  Worried about what I eat.

I never worried about what I ate.  Fast food was a very good friend.  I could go anywhere and eat tons of food, and never think of what it was doing to me.  Never had a issue with eating it until I lost my job of 17 years and I was starting my own business with my father.  My ex wife did not value the work I was doing and saw my eating of fast food as not a good thing for our family.  So I tried really hard to hide it,  but from time to time get caught.  When every thing fall apart in 2014, the only meal I would eat is a fast food meal.  If it was not for the dollar menus I would have starved.

By the end of 2014, I was living where I live now, and found the job I have now.  The starting pay was not great, but I hung in there, and the union at work got us a new contract with much better pay.  This gave me the chance to rekindle my relationship with fast food.  But I did not like that people knew I was back with fast food. So I hide it in my room.  Did not see anything wrong with this until I got sick and was in the hospital and a rehab center for a month, and one of my room mates found all of my empty fast food bags and cups.  I was embarrassed.  

I came home and had to change my lifestyle.  I was on oxygen, and to get off that I needed to change.  So I changed my eating habits and I started walking.  I lost a lot of weight and by December of 2016, I was off the oxygen.  But soon, a long distance relationship ended and I was back to seeking comfort from my old friend fast food.  Eating right and working out did not seem important anymore.  

But as one door closes another opens.  I meet a wonderful girl who loved me for me.  She saw the value of me.  She started to say how she wanted me around for a very long time.  We talked about what that meant, and she wanted to start food prepping.  We started to see small gains.  By Thanksgiving we kind of got busy and the food prepping went by the side.  I got sick again in December and by April of this year I had pneumonia again.  This time I did not put me in the hospital.  But I need to change things again.  So we started the food prepping again and I really watch what I eat.  Gave up bread, and potatoes.  Started walking again and going to the gym.  I have seen great gains from this. 

The first time we go out to eat, it was really hard.  What do I eat, what do I order?  I got ribs and chicken, corn and black beans.  It came with Texas toast, and that stayed on the plate.  I could still go out to eat, just make smart choices.  

I still stop and get me a hamburger from time to time.  Do not eat the bun, and not fries which at first was hard) and if I do get a soda, it is a Coke Zero, Cherry (Thanks Lund Johnson)!!!  It is all about making smart choices for now on!